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I fasted, and this is what I learned.

<p>For about two months now I&&num;8217&semi;ve been on what you can call&comma; a spiritual journey&period; During this time&comma; I&&num;8217&semi;ve worked on my connection with the man upstairs in a few ways&&num;8230&semi; Church every Sunday&comma; bible study every Thursday&comma; attempting to stay in constant communication with God&comma; so on and so on&&num;8230&semi; Basically all of the things that are supposed to be no brainers&comma; right&quest;<&sol;p>&NewLine;<p>So about 4 weeks ago I was sitting in bible study when my pastor spoke briefly about fasting&period; He said&comma; <em>&&num;8220&semi;all fasting is&comma; is abstaining from something that you&&num;8217&semi;re connected to in order for God to make room for something else in your life&&num;8221&semi;<&sol;em>&period; In that instance&comma; it was as if a light bulb went off in my head&period; I decided that night after bible study that I would start a fast in order for God to work on a few things within my life&&num;8230&semi; but what would I abstain from&quest;<&sol;p>&NewLine;<p>Throughout the night I evaluated all of the things that I was attached to and that would serve as a sacrifice for God&period; I determined that there were three things that I was absolutely sure of&colon;<&sol;p>&NewLine;<ol>&NewLine;<li>Social Media<&sol;li>&NewLine;<li>Shopping<&sol;li>&NewLine;<li>Juices &lpar;and in this case sodas as well&rpar;<&sol;li>&NewLine;<&sol;ol>&NewLine;<p>I knew that I couldn&&num;8217&semi;t cut out social media all together being that it is my main source of communication&comma; however I decided that at 10 p&period;m&period; every night I would not check any of my accounts&period; This meant that I couldn&&num;8217&semi;t open the apps at all&period; &lpar;I would do this from 10 p&period;m&period; to 10 a&period;m&period; every day&rpar; In addition to this&comma; I would not spend any money on things that weren&&num;8217&semi;t essential to me and I would also only drink water from sun up to sun down&period; Pretty simple&comma; right&quest;<&sol;p>&NewLine;<p>Wrong&period; The timeline went a little like this&colon;<&sol;p>&NewLine;<p>Day 1-3 of fasting&colon; This is easy&comma; it&&num;8217&semi;ll be a breeze&period;<&sol;p>&NewLine;<p>Day 4-8 of fasting&colon; Why did I start this fast&quest; I need to check my Snapchat&period;<&sol;p>&NewLine;<p>And let&&num;8217&semi;s just say that it didn&&num;8217&semi;t get any easier from there&period; I had to constantly remind myself of the things that I was asking of God in exchange for the things that I was sacrificing&period; My requests to him were <span style&equals;"color&colon;&num;ff0000&semi;">patience&comma; strength&comma; self-control&comma; and a greater awareness of his presence&period;<&sol;span><&sol;p>&NewLine;<p>The last day of my fast was July 31st&comma; so that August 1st I could start fresh&period; Here we are August 12th&comma; and I can say that I learned so much during that time&period; When it came to social media&comma; I constantly felt as if I were missing something&&num;8230&semi; I was missing people&&num;8217&semi;s lives because I wasn&&num;8217&semi;t watching it on Snapchat and I was missing their thoughts because I couldn&&num;8217&semi;t read it on Twitter&period; Not to mention the night I went out for my linesister&&num;8217&semi;s birthday&period; <span style&equals;"text-decoration&colon;underline&semi;">Everyone<&sol;span> knows that people go to the club just to document how much fun their having &lpar;as crazy as it sounds&rpar; Seeing everyone around me Snapchat their favorite song lyrics and pictures with their friends while I couldn&&num;8217&semi;t&comma; didn&&num;8217&semi;t sit well with me&period; Being that I couldn&&num;8217&semi;t snap&comma; it was like that saying&comma; &&num;8220&semi;if a tree falls in the forest and no one&&num;8217&semi;s around to hear it&comma; did it make a sound&quest;&&num;8221&semi; In this case&comma; <em>if I was out and enjoying myself but no one was able to see it&comma; did it really happen&quest;<&sol;em><&sol;p>&NewLine;<p>The other two sacrifices were far easier&period; Living in Florida in the summer is no joke&comma; so every day I made sure to have my container filled with water&period; That was smooth sailing until I forgot to grab it one day before class&period; A quick stop to the gas station to purchase a bottle solved that issue&period; As time went on&comma; instead of just drinking water only from sun up to sun down&comma; I&&num;8217&semi;d find myself drinking it at night as well&period;<&sol;p>&NewLine;<p>Shopping went pretty well also&comma; my only expenditures included some clothing that I needed for my new blog pictures but I refrained from going to stores that would tempt me into purchasing things that I really didn&&num;8217&semi;t need&period;<&sol;p>&NewLine;<p>Through the course of my fast&comma; and afterwards&comma; I have found myself to be extremely thankful&period; I knew that the end of the fast wouldn&&num;8217&semi;t mean that I&&num;8217&semi;d automatically wake up to being more patient&comma; strong&comma; and cognizant of God&&num;8217&semi;s presence&period;&period; but I did know that it would be a step in the right direction&period; I find myself much more peaceful in times that would regularly upset me and disturb my inner peace&period; I&&num;8217&semi;m human so yes&comma; I do have moments of weakness but now I find myself relying on God&&num;8217&semi;s strength to uphold me rather than pulling from deep within for temporary moments of relief&comma; when his word tells us that in our weaknesses&comma; his power is made perfect&period; <span style&equals;"text-decoration&colon;underline&semi;"><span style&equals;"color&colon;&num;ff0000&semi;text-decoration&colon;underline&semi;">&lpar;2 Corinthians 12&colon;9-11&rpar;<&sol;span><&sol;span>  And to top it all off&quest; I&&num;8217&semi;ll end with a story&&num;8230&semi;<&sol;p>&NewLine;<p>During this time&comma; I was extremely discouraged with my job&period; I&&num;8217&semi;d been feeling like nothing that I was doing was good enough and that it was pretty much pointless for me to put the amount of effort in that I&&num;8217&semi;d been putting fourth becasue it wasn&&num;8217&semi;t truly appreciated or acknowledged&period; &lbrack;Keep in mind that one of the terms of my fast was to receive a keener awareness of God&&num;8217&semi;s presence&period;&rsqb; Around the last few days of my fast&comma; I was at work stocking shelves when someone said&comma; &&num;8220&semi;Hi&&num;8221&semi;&period; When I turned around&comma; I saw that the greeting came from an older white woman who&&num;8217&semi;d been in the store about a month earlier&period; As she continued down the aisle&comma; she stalled for a moment and turned back around&period; When she caught my eye she told me that she&&num;8217&semi;d just talked to my manager about how great of an employee that I was and she then goes on to say&comma; &&num;8220&semi;hard work doesn&&num;8217&semi;t go unnoticed&period; You&&num;8217&semi;ll be blessed&period; It may not be today and it may not be tomorrow but you will be&period; Just keep doing what you&&num;8217&semi;re doing&period;&&num;8221&semi; When she walked away I knew that God used her to speak to me because I was at my lowest of low points in this job&period; Here&&num;8217&semi;s the thing&comma; when I pray&comma; I <strong><span style&equals;"text-decoration&colon;underline&semi;">always<&sol;span><&sol;strong> ask God to make things <span style&equals;"color&colon;&num;ff0000&semi;">clear and plain<&sol;span>&period; He knows that if he were to send me a sign&comma; I&&num;8217&semi;d miss it every time&period; The only signs I understand are the ones that slap me in the face&comma; and usually those come a tad bit too late&period; But from that moment on&comma; I knew that he was breaking down the barriers of communication between me and him and for that&comma; I am eternally grateful&period;<&sol;p>&NewLine;<p>Do you have any questions about fasting&quest; Or are you thinking about doing a fast&quest; Let me know&excl;<&sol;p>&NewLine;<p>From Me to You&comma; <span style&equals;"color&colon;&num;ff0000&semi;">Love<&sol;span>&period;<&sol;p>&NewLine;<p>&nbsp&semi;<&sol;p>&NewLine;&NewLine;<&excl;-- WP QUADS Content Ad Plugin v&period; 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